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Tuesday, September 07, 2010

An unsent letter

Dear Xxxxxx,

How are you? It has been a while since we last contacted each other. I guess it would be awkward if we still keep in touch. Afterall, we are no longer emotionally and physically attached to each other. A year ago, we still had our eyes in each other's. It seems just like yesterday, when I held your hands and officially asked you to board the train together towards the station of happiness. Finally, we could proudly announced that we were together for real after remaining ambiguous and subjected to queries from our common friends. Honestly and naively, we thought that by coming clear with our relationship, things would be the same like before and our feelings for each other would be further enhanced. However, both of us would never have expected that our supposed love could not be sustained in the long run.

Fingering the blame on each other but ourself is normal, which I would not deny that I am guilty of that initially. Frankly, I hated you initially for giving up our relationship easily and regretted my decision to plunge into this relationship without observing further. However, after some serious reflections for the past months, I realised that it is not fair for any one of us to shoulder the majority of blame for causing this relationship to dissolve. Afterall, there is no right or wrong in love. It is just a matter of compatibility, mutual trust, understanding and compassion for each other. The initial pure love we had for each other was scarred by increasing disappointments we had for each other out of failure to meet each other's expectations; as well as the inability to reconcile our differences.

Today could have been our one year anniversary if our love was strong enough to overcome all obstacles. I understand that insisting on leaving is your excuse of being hurt. Even though it is pointless now, but sometimes I cannot help myself from thinking about all the positive memories that we shared. Even though fate did not allow us to continue loving each other more than 57 days, nonetheless I am still thankful that we managed to meet each other in our lives. I would like to thank you for convincing me to take the plunge, despite the eventual breakdown. If there is a chance to start all over again, I would still put in my efforts to love and pamper you like the way I did before. The only difference is perhaps I would have loved you more, so as to understand and tolerate your shortcomings.

I know you have already decided to look ahead, so it is time for me as well to put a lock on the past memories from today onwards. Both of us need to pick ourselves up, look ahead and forget all the unhappiness and bitterness which resulted from our unexpected ending. I would like to wish you all the best in whatever you do. May happiness and joy surround you always.

Love,
Andrew

scribbled by Andrew on 11:45 PM

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