Parents ' Day

Yesterday was Parents ' Day.  Kind of expected wat Mrs Leong will say. I was glad that all my subject tutors had good feedbacks of me except Nandwani whom my mom and I went to speak to him after that. He didnt mince his words. I must buck up and spend more time on econs and yes , must love econs. At the same time I should also maintain my grades for other subjects. The percentiles of my other subjects compared to econs are like heaven and hell. Cannot afford to allow an object that has killed me once to repeat its feat.

Rereading my previous entry , I really lost my cool.  But anybody who is in my shoes I think they will feel the same. That's life I supposed. Full of ups and downs. From now on ,  I must pia to show wat I am capable of and wat my true worth is.

Dun like to use obscene language to express myself. However , when things get too unbearable ..........

FUCK.

I admit it was largely our fault. I dun bear any grudges. But the feeling of being betrayed and played out , it's too much to swallow. And of all people...by our own ppl. Irresponsible freaks.

Well , I skipped training today and cabbed home. Dulan. Partly to watch Double Happiness 1. That's the only nice thing that happened today.

I can see things are getting bleak.

But dun put us out yet.

We will survive.

A fucked up day indeed.

Kind of full now coz just ate a supper of durians...but it's nice. =) A simple day today. Was supposed to be out with Eve today but she couldnt make it. So instead I spent the day clearing some of the piling homework. Left econs essay and the dreaded book review which I dun think last min work will bring me any chance of winning a prize. Met up with Drake for an early dinner at 331.  Stayed there quite a while and chatted since it's not easy for us to fork out some time out of our schedules to meet up. It 's always nice talking to him becoz he is 1 of the few ppl who actually give sensible advices and views , be it in life or streetwise. Then yesterday went to watch Brotherhood aka Taegukgi in Korean in the evening with Irene. It was super nice. This show is about 2 brothers being caught up with the brutal conflict in the Korean War in 1950. Actually the show is kind of draggy coz it all just revolves around the point of the throes of sibling love. Kind of bloodied and violent but is v.touching right in the end. Definitely value for money and a must watch. Am glad I watched it.
 
This week was hellish. Tired easily at times and injury-prone. Must be due to the long break without regular work-out routines that caused my fitness level to dip drastically. But I am doing fine.  
  

Sometimes the things I do , I wander if it's extra or unnecessary.

I might appear nonchalent , but the truth is I really do care.

Many a times ppl said that the higher hopes u place on something , it wont come but it happens when u least expected. As for me , it wont happen in both cases I guess. I am not a lucky guy and never was , u noe.

Sometimes , people think that fate decides everything. But I feel that we shouldnt completely resigned to fate. Unless we give up entirely , which I think it will be very sad.

NKF charity show last sunday was real touching. I remembered a boy said that he feels that in life one should be happy , because life is actually beautiful and to be able to live is 1 of the most fortunate things that can happen. Mind u , he has difficulties but yet he is still optimistic about the future. Wat abt us , the perfectly healthy human beings ? Think I ought to be shot.

Though I dun really like it , but I do think a lot. I think of my future. I admit I am not really happy. But I am a lot ok now if u noe wat I mean , compared to the me at the start of the year. Half a year has gone and so much things had happened , be it personal or other matters. However , every now and then I still feel bitter. Had nights thinking too much often , but the next day when I woke up , I felt much better. Why ? Because I feel fortunate that I am able to wake up and open my eyes and think and ask myself , wat are the challenges and tasks I face for the day lying ahead ?

Ask me wat am I pursuing in life , I will say is happiness and success. Though as I said I am not a lucky guy , but I still believe in myself. That I can do it.

The road ahead is long and treacherous.

Many obstacles along the path are just there as tests to ourselves. These just makes one stronger as we set ourselves in overcoming them.

Reaching the end , that will be the door to my paradise.

I can survive , even if it means that I have to shoulder everything alone.

I am typing this entry while at the same time watching NKF charity show live on channel 8. Shall summarised the past week's events in a nutshell.

Monday - It was Youth Day. A simple day spent playing pool with Cheng Guan at Mambo for close to 4 hrs then went to Taka to eat dessert and Takopachi. It was nice. Bugis in the evening for a while b4 calling it a day. Tuesday - during hist lect TCP announced the top 3 for mid yr SEA hist results. I was pleased and a bit surprised to learn that I got 2nd in the entire history cohort , losing out to the top scorer by just a mark. He got a present from TCP. Think it's a box of chocolate or a set of stationery or sth coz it was sth squarish. The day was spoiled because I flunked my econs. Nandwani did not mince his words over my class 's performance of this paper. Haiz. The last period was GP and thought "Jolin" will give us back our papers but nope. Instead she let us see "The Last Days" by Steven Spielberg. It was about "The Holocaust" . A very interesting but yet horrifying video. Now I can understand y some ppl say that the greatest enemy of mankind are humans themselves. One can never imagine that humans can heartlessly and brutally inflict pain and hurt on other fellow humans..just because they were deemed as being an inferior race and therefore had to be exterminated. Wednesday - The shortest day of the week. Played hockey during PE. My team was playing against "salad" 's admirer's team. lol. It seemed like a personal battle coz the 2 of us were like tackling each other for the ball and all. lol. And I wore the wrong shoes for PE..totally forgot abt it till I reached sch in the morn and I had to be extra careful not to spoil my sneakers. bah. Got back my SEA hist paper today too. Thursday - Lessons as usual. The highlight of the day was my cla teacher flying aeroplane out of us. She didnt tell us that she had to go invigilate oral and we waited for close to an hour. She could have informed us abt her no show..or at least informed me this rep so that I can relay the message to others but nope , she did not. Ended I looked for my CT , Mrs Leong. She told us not to wait anymore. The best was that I waited from staff contact time till 4+ p.m. The rest at least have maths in between. I could have gone home at 12+ lor coz I decided to skip training today. Friday - Kelly told me that I wasnt the only 1 who skipped training yday. lol. Got back both cla papers. I achieved As for both paper 1 and 2 so overall I got A for cla. My class did well for paper 2. Almost half of the 16 ppl who got A in the cohort were from my class. =) Didnt top in either papers but that was secondary. Topping the class or cohort is just a bonus to me. Wat matters most is I achieved my target. Haiz. But I flunked my econs and it's a shame. As for hist , I just need 32 more marks from Euro hist to get an A. Hope to get an A or at least a B,which I had targeted originally.

Sat and Sun was spent at home. R & R and blasting my fav music. Finished up my homework and started reading up on the newly issued SEA hist notes. This week kinda relax coz I decided to rest a bit after mid yr exams. Starting from next Mon onwards is back to work mode again. Studies , bball..and hopefully I can squeeze in some time occasionally for pool. My econs is real jia lat. Gotta spend more time on that. Tml collecting back euro hist paper from Kellett. Wish me luck. :>

I have removed the stuffs at the bottom of my blog tentatively pending for further reconstruction of my blog. But still left the counter there. =)

Was so reluctant to wake up today in the morning even though I slept early the previous night..well..not exactly early..11+. Went for chinese listening compre and after that while heading out of the gate with KY and Evon and Evon was like telling me something. OMG. The world is so super small loh. Surprise of the century. Wat a great start to the day. Went home to eat and sleep..lol..tired la. Cant do without sufficient sleep. Think 10 hours is an ideal need.

Met up with Yee Kheng at DG in the afternoon. Before that went to order cake near my old hse there for my dad 's bday which is on Monday. She was early but luckily I didnt arrived late either. Was supposed to watch Around The World In Eighty Days but left only the 1st 3 rows with available seats. bahh. Dun wanna pay money to strain necks. Hate front row seats. So we just walked down town to walk around. Got to noe her better through our chats. Saw a couple of my sec sch mates in town. Then in the evening the 2 of us met up with Xue Ying and her friends at Mambo for pool. 2 weeks nv play le and my hands are dying to hold the cue stick. lol. Had fun reigning against the few guys in the group. They arent newbies so I didnt fang4 shui3. ahaz. Room for improvement still though. Went for dinner at Picnic Foodcourt then they left at Somerset while I continued to go DG alone to meet up with my sis and Evon take NEL go back sgn. Had a short stopover at central for beancurd then er..got freebies take. Wont elaborate on that. hahz.

Sherlin just called regarding some dilemma she faced. Am glad she is alright. =) Thought she gonna explain abt her no show 2 weeks ago but I cant believe she say she didnt receive the msg. I really thought I had sent it. argh.

I am tired.

Heading to bathe now and sleep.

Just came back ! Today went to sch for the last major paper which is cla paper 1. Felt a bit cheated coz the zao4 ju4 's coverage was not as extensive as the content we were required to read up. Nevertheless it was a good paper , so no complaints. Yesterday there was no paper so went shopping with Evon with me buying most of my stuffs. lol. The only thing was that I should not have come home so early yesterday to get ready for today. And I thought I saw Jacelyn outside yday. Guess I probably saw the wrong person. Anyway must start saving for long term plans..so must not spend unnecessarily ! But that will be hard I guess. No extra income from Euro'04 coz I didnt bet. Only watch. bahh.

Been missing lots of Euro 2004 action lately. The Czechs lost undeservedly considered that they were 1 of the few zai teams , or rather , the only team in my view that was consistent. Holland on the other hand lost which was expected at the rate of their inconsistency and ineptness towards their team building and everything. So the final will be Portugal Vs Greece. Like a repeat of the opening match but let 's hope that Portugal will emerge as winner.

Think I will catch up on my sleep and probably go watch movies. I haven watch "the best bet" yet. Nobody seem to have the interest to place their " best bet" for this show though. But I am curious wat stuffs Jack Neo got to show this time round. Somemore the advertisement very cool ..and I like the song.


BAI LIU LI BAI !!!
HUI BU HUI KAIIIIIII !!!

Cool eh ? try imitating it. No harm trying. It takes a certain amount of effort to perfect that just like the advertisement though. haha.