HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SERENE !
I planned a little surprise for xiao lian but the staff in coffeebean sort of screwed it up so it wasn't that surprising anymore. I always like to disturb Serene by calling her xiao lian and she will like "whey ! don't call me that ! " , clenching her fingers into a fist and wave at me in mock protest. haha ! Today is also my medical checkup at NUS too and thanks to her for showing me around campus , in particular the faculty area which I will be roaming about for the next 4 years. If not for her free guided-tour , I will have a hard time navigating my way around. I had absolutely no idea where Yusof Ishak House is located and it wasn't until I reached there then I realised oh I actually came here before 2 years ago with ah Fel. She accompanied me to NUS Open House 06 and we happened to stumble upon the building back then.
There are various reasons why I chose NUS over NTU. The prime factor is because since young , I have always dream of going to NUS to obtain my degree. It is a goal which I set upon in reaching it. Seriously , I can't wait for school to start. Sick of working already.
I am on unpaid leave today as my other colleagues are required to attend refresher training today. Seizing the rare break from work , I went cycling at Bishan Park for close to 2 hours in the morning. Cycling has , hitherto , never been my top choice of favourite activities to do. This is mostly due to my maladroit cycling skills. However , I am the kind of person who relishes overcoming obstacles and fears. Hence , it was a good 2 hours work-out to hone my cycling techniques. I must say cycling is really a delectable activity and am glad that this is a new found hobby.
Busy with work and tuition these days. The only day in which I can claim the whole day to myself is Saturday. Pros and cons in leading such a lifestyle. The most propitious and tangible gain is of course monetary gains. I sleep very well too every night , because sometimes I am so physically and mentally drained that I tune to "KO mode" immediately when my head touches the pillow.
Being busy also channels all energy and attention to more important things to-do , such as work and tuition for my case. This is actually better than thinking unnecessary stuffs. However , sometimes , one will wonder what purpose is there in life he/she can look forward to. I am a normal human being , just like everyone else. I do have feelings and I tend to think more than necessary , thinking of the past , my future , etc. Sometimes , I slip into emo mode suddenly , particularly on bus or train journeys. There are a lot of questions on matters that I don't fathom. For instance , why am I being denied the top CLA student award back in college , why can she be so happy in another man's arms. Perhaps , the beauty of things is much appreciated and is better for everybody if certain matters are left unanswered. I share this to people around me at times when they needed a listening ear to their problems but when it comes to my own stuffs , I do not practise what I preached. Not that I do mind listening to their problems (since everybody's favourite subject is always themselves). I will be glad to help if I can. However , I feel addlepated and lonely at times in this beautiful but yet treacherous journey in life. Often , I wish there is someone out there for me --- to take my hand , to walk beside me , to assure me , that everything I do is worthwhile for sweet returns in future. Up to now , however , it seems that I only ended up in disappointments more than anything. These disappointments are constant and haunting reminders that I am still not up there yet.
Disappointments and rejections are my greatest fears and is all up to me to overcome them.
A recrudescence of people falling (or jumping) off MRT tracks has come to light again this morning. I was in the very train that scourged the man. The train was jerking its way along Choa Chu Kang MRT station before coming to an abrupt halt. Initially , I had thought I already arrived at Jurong East MRT station (normally the train will come to an annoying stop some way near Jurong East (not exactly sure why this is so but nonetheless it is a good wake up call for those in lala land). It was only then that I realised something serious must have happened. Passengers were seen peering at the railway tracks from the platform and inside train carriages. Actually , it is unfathomable why the man could have fallen off. I mean , it took place during a peak hour time. The morning crowd comprises of office workers , school-bound students and other miscellaneous groups. If the man's demeanour had shown any propensity of abnormal symtoms , surely passengers from afar or nearby could have stop him ? However , there is a possibility of him committing an extemporaneous act which no one could manage to prevent him in time.
What a way to end one's life. It must have really hurt.
Saya kasihan sama dia.
